I pause to remember once again that I am very tired. It's been my reality all day--and it's been a rough day, too. How are you supposed to take and make phone calls every five minutes while trying to eat lunch and prepare to go to town? Never mind you had just woken up from a nap that was not nearly as long as would have been necessary to re-energize you. Through much of it, I kept getting this thought that I was being "tested." Oh . . . I'm supposed to not fall apart through all of this. God will give me the strength, and I'll feel just great in the end. :)
Now I'm sitting in a hotel room waiting for the rest of our group to get back from shopping. I was planning on getting some good use out of the internet here, but nothing seems too exciting when you feel like sleeping more than anything else. I know that a major reason for my sleepiness is getting to bed late, but I also know that my getting up early to have time with God has cut my nights short on the other end. I can't tell you how many times I have been tempted and given in to temptation to sleep instead of get up for my quiet time, but there's nothing that gives me a better start to my day than that quiet time with God. How's this supposed to work?'
Suddenly new understanding begins to dawn. A girl in love with a young man will often miss sleep just to spend time with him. She will may try to get the sleep she needs, but I would suppose that it usually isn't very hard to choose between sleeping and spending time with that special person. That kind of a relationship can make your whole day better even if you don't get enough sleep.
And I'm finding it to be so true when in a relationship with Him. When I realize that spending time with Him gives me more peace and joy than anything else (even all the sleep I could want), it is my joy to spend time with Him even when I don't feel well rested. And I've even seen how I was even more sleepy during the week that I slept in every morning than during the week that I got up early to have quiet time every morning. His promise is true . . .
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
He's worth losing sleep for.