My thoughts go back over the years. Arguing with my conscience that it was okay to let my mind make up dreams of a wonderful future. Then deciding I'd better stop arguing, but not being able to break the habit. At last prayer was my only hope for something that would take it's place. A few days of asking God's blessing on others instead of giving into temptation was enough to convince my foe to take a break.
But with him taking a rest, my arms did the same and down went the shield. Little by little I lost ground again. With a realization of my predicament, I determined to fight. But when the heart still wants to give in, it's hard to keep a grip on the sword. Yet I was resigned to hold it up even if my heart always wanted to lay it down.
Now I stand in disbelief. Can it really be that God changed my ways and my desires? To love good and hate evil? He did. And is. And will.
"Delight thyself also in the Lord, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart."
And when God gives the desire, it is always a good desire.